Full-Blown Suffering: My Battle Against the Enigmatic Pain of Cluster Headaches

It was a overcast weekday in the morning in the autumn of 2016. I was working as a teacher, trying to settle a new group of students, when a sharp sensation bloomed behind my one eye. Then came quick shocks, similar to lightning bolts. As each class progressed, the discomfort subsided and then came back with increased force. Multiple times that day I handed over a colleague with worksheets and ran to the school bathroom to soak my face with cold water. I tried paracetamol, but the pain remained unrelenting.

The headaches returned frequently that autumn, and again in the spring, soon forming an annual pattern. September and October were the most severe, then February and March. I could anticipate the routine: aura in the shower, early pangs on the commute, full-blown pain in the classroom by mid-morning. In 2019, a doctor finally sent me to a specialist and I was diagnosed with cluster headache disorder.

Cluster headaches typically start with intense pain behind one eye that persists up to several hours.

Approximately 1 in 1000 people suffer by the condition, and males are more frequently diagnosed. Cluster headaches usually begin with abrupt, excruciating agony focused on a single eye that reaches its peak within a short time and lasts for up to three hours. Attacks come in clusters, every day or multiple times a day, and are accompanied by red or watery eyes, drooping eyelids or facial sweating. There exists the episodic form, which arrives in seasonal bouts; others have chronic cluster headaches, characterized by the lack of extended symptom-free periods.

What unites sufferers is the severity. One research paper scored the sensation at 9.7 10, more severe than bone fractures or pancreatitis. Another discovered a significant percentage of cluster patients reported suicidal thoughts during bouts; the number dropped to 4% when they were not in pain.

One patient, 74, a long-term patient from Pembrokeshire, finds this understandable. Her attacks started when she was two. “I would hurl myself on the ground and bang my head. That was put down to being a difficult child,” she says. Her symptoms deteriorated through her youth. Alcohol in her teens, similar to many causes, made things worse. After having sherry at her graduation party, she recalls hardly being able to see on the bus home.

Her family often interpreted her episodes as drunken behavior. Support eventually came from her parent and then from her husband, her spouse. “I was very lucky to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs found clerical work after moving, but often hid her condition. She was dismissed from one job, partly due to time off during episodes. Her definitive identification came in 2002 at a specialist hospital.

Still, the failure to plan life around erratic pain took its effect. She especially hated being unable to plan outings, being seen as unreliable as a colleague, and even having to be cared for by her family during the paralysis caused by the most severe episodes. “It robs you of the small liberties we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She recalls winning tickets for a significant concert, only to have an episode inside a facility.


Headaches have been described across the ages. “The first description of headache comes by way of the Mesopotamians in 4000BC,” write authors in a book on the subject. They linked the disease to an evil entity who attacked his victims' heads.

Ancient medical records suggest bizarre remedies for what some experts would describe as a migraine. In the medieval times, migraine was recognised as a distinct disorder, with therapies including herbal concoctions to other, more superstitious cures.

It was a European doctor who provided the first comprehensive account of a cluster headache. In his writings, he describes a patient “suffering with a very intense headache occurring and disappearing daily at specific hours”.

The disorder were only formally classified by international headache societies in 1988. From the 1960s to the late 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a problem with a major blood vessel which supplies blood to the brain. Prominent specialists in diagnosing the condition explain this.

In 1998, researchers published the results of a research project for which they had triggered attacks in patients and monitored the attacks in a imaging machine. The data, featured in a major medical publication, showed increased activity of the a brain region, which is in charge for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in discomfort, and a reduction when they recovered.

Despite such progress, diagnosis remains delayed. One man's attacks started in 1986 and felt like “a modelling balloon being blown up behind my one eye”. Doctors thought he had sinus problems; he had multiple surgeries before eventually being diagnosed in 2014, after a doctor researched his symptoms.

Neurologists say delays in diagnosis and managing occur because patients are seldom seen during an episode. “You're tired and depressed, but not in severe pain,” a doctor says. He proceeds by ruling out other common head pain conditions, such as tension-type headache, before diagnosing the disorder. A detailed patient history is essential: on which side do symptoms appear? For how much time? What season? Are there precipitating factors, such as certain foods? Specific features such as redness, sagging eyelids and nasal congestion help verify cluster headaches. Once diagnosed, patients may be referred to specialist centers. But many first go to emergency rooms or are given inadequate treatments.

Dorothy Chapman, 78, has suffered from cluster headaches for the majority of her adult life, although she has been free from an attack since 2016. When she was in her twenties, she had her molars extracted because dentists misinterpreted her pain. She thinks the dental profession still need greater education. When a sufferer sought help from a support group, it was Chapman who responded. I remember calling a helpline during an bout in 2021; a reassuring advisor talked me through oxygen treatment and drugs until the episode eased.

National guidelines on management advise that sufferers are offered high-flow oxygen therapy and/or a specific drug administered by injection. No oral painkillers or strong analgesics should be used. Preventive choices include a blood pressure medication, which reportedly helps manage the bouts of some people.

But leading neurologists believe the official guidelines need revising to reflect a clearer treatment process and help GPs avoid misprescribing. For episodic patients, the treatment window is critical: “The duration of the cycle determines the treatment.” Short cycles with infrequent attacks are handled with acute treatment only. Longer or more intense bouts require preventative medications such as verapamil, sometimes paired with corticosteroids. A significant number of patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a cycle – an procedure into the area of the head where the discomfort is that reduces nerve activity.

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Anna Turner
Anna Turner

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